Flash
forward to over a year later.
I'm
sitting in the bush, aka the jungle, and it is so lush.
Just
sitting here typing I can hear three different types of birds
chirping away. It's humid enough to feel your skin becoming sticky
and your oily hair mat against your face. But there is a slight
breeze that feels cool and refreshing despite the constant “ I want
to shower” sensation.
The rain comes and goes and there's this soft pitter patter of it
hitting all the leaves. It is SO GREEN.
It's
absolutely beautiful. But the mozzies are the worst! I get new bites
every day. I'm going to be moving to the other side of Nimbin in a
few days. I'm a bit North of town and I'll be moving just outside of
town to an area that is more farm like, more grass, less bugs (I
hope), and it'll be a bit hotter.
I
still haven't found a job, a month after starting to look for one.
It's been hard. I've had two random shifts at a cafe doing dishes. A
part of me thinks maybe I should give up looking for a job and just
travel until I run out of money. But what I really like about being
in Nimbin is getting to know the people here. The friends I've met
welcomed me from the start and included me, not because I was so and
so's friend, but because why wouldn't they? Today I was in town and
went into the information centre to ask a question and the woman
asked me “Are you Anisha? I'm Stone's step-mom.” I don't think we
ever got introduced, but we have been circling around the same people
over the holidays and she was open about knowing who I was and not
abashed by it. I love that!! I really dislike when people pretend not
to know your name or shy away from remembering when they met you.
A few days ago I was at the Amphi
and Quinn asked me “What are your passions?” I quickly came to
realise (which I've known, but haven't quite formulated in a clear
and concise way), I don't have a passion. I don't have anything that
I'm really passionate. I have things I enjoy, but I don't even know
if I have a hobby.
I
really love doing yoga. But I can't say it's a passion in the sense
that I need to share it with others. I love reading, but again, it's
not something I share with others.
Over
the last two years I come to realise that I want to talk to people. I
like educating others, teaching them, and listening to them. But I
don't know what
I want to teach them to do or what to communicate. I enjoy making
connections for others, weather it's business or personal.
The
other day I was talking to Zeem (sp?), about the 16 types of
personalities and how my personality type (ESFJ) is the most common
personality type, but in one of my groups of friends, I'm the only
ESFJ and there are four or five people who are the least common
personality types. And how perhaps I'm a bridge, I can bridge between
this more esoteric, introversion, the feelings, to the more
concrete, logic, and extroverted types of personalities. And it's
true, I do bounce between two different types of worlds. I am super
efficient and work very well in logical, scheduled, and clear cut
rule environments. But I also need and love being in the more
relaxed, grey areas, kind
of sloppy environments.
Maybe
there's something in that. Hopefully I'm being guided towards an
answer and all I have to do is be open to it.
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